Well, as they say... what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Shit happens. You live and you learn. It can't always be sunshine and roses. So on and so forth. Ya da ya da ya da.
I suppose this is all true, although a bit tough to swallow at times. Here again we find ourselves in a sticky situation. For the second time in a matter of months my husband gets laid off. (shady company in which i have not a single decent thing to mutter about).
Oh yay just what I needed! Another trying time filled with financial struggles, stress, anxiousness and all that goes with it! - insert sarcastic voice and big hand gestures.
I'm pretty sure the only good thing to come out of 2013 is my wonderful beautiful son. Because we are seriously being tested this year. Good thing my faith in God and positive thinking out weighs all the awfulness and garbage life can throw our way! Well....struggles 0 Conner family 2. So suck it world, bring it on because we've got this. My God is good and I can't be shaken.
Being a new mom on its own is a whole new mind blowing concept to tackle. Lets toss in working and being away from your baby 12 hours at a time, 2 lay offs, medical bills unpaid, my parents moving out of state, the IRS saying we owe from 2011 taxes ( incorrect we have the info to prove them wrong), and the fact I don't get medical benefits through my job. Struggling. I admit this last lay off put me in a major funk. For a good few days i gave into it but I'm over it now. I'm done and moving on.
I look at the big picture and see that I am so incredibly lucky. Through this time, my love for my husband and family never changes. We are 100% in this together, fighting, crying, praying together. Holding on to the hope of our future and knowing that this time we struggle with is so small and insignificant compared to the rest of our lives. Its a bump in the road. A story we will tell our kids of how hard it was in the beginning. And I know, in my heart that I wont be tested any more than what i can possibly handle.
Romans 8:24-25
"For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently."
Our break is coming, no matter what it looks like, I know it's out there. Might be completely different than we expected but that's the way life goes. And we will welcome the change!
What better way to forget the heavy then baby arts and crafts!!! With the weather being so rainy and nasty last week the pirate and I decided to do some early Halloween crafts. ( More like I decided and the pirate was forced against his will to go along with it :)
Tadaaaa! pumpkin butt step one: dip baby butt in orange paint. Step two: sit baby butt on paper. Step three: quickly move to bathtime before he pees on you and everything else in site.
Ghost/candy corn foot print: Paint foot. Step foot on paper. Bam. Its the little things in life that make me smile....can't tell I used to teach preschool at all can you?
I would have posted my gluten free pumpkin cookies i attempted to make but they SUCKED. Baking fail for sure, which i hardly ever fail when it comes to baking so my self esteem is a tad deflated. But I will perfect the recipe like a boss and post an epic baking win soon. I promise.
All in all...life is a challenge, a puzzle, a struggle. But how entirely boring would it be without a little bump now and then?
-Goodnight! - E
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